After a nice early morning walk with my friend, I made the decision to dress it up a little bit for work. I work in a place where the dress code is lax and casual. However, I passed on the jeans and flannels and I decided that I would wear my nice green dress, tights to keep my legs warm and my black boots. I finished off the outfit with a black and white cinched belt and a silver heart necklace. I dried my hair and decided to wear it down. I told myself that it would be a “good” day, that I was rocking a super cute outfit and I felt good in my skin. Nothing could stand in my way today.
Walking into work, I had my head high and a smile on my face. About an hour into being at work, my co-worker fell quite ill. Due to the severity of the illness, I volunteered to drive him home as he was unable to drive himself. About an hour later, after I was done driving Mrs. Daisy, I took an Uber back to the office. The driver was nice enough, but sitting in the back seat, along with his expedient driving, I was feeling green.
Upon return to the office, I had my lunch. Due to an afternoon appointment with my therapist, I would need to leave work around 2 PM. The chauffeuring cut into the time in the office and completing my daily responsibilities. I had an hour to get a bit of work done, so while eating I started on the tasks at hand. I rushed through all I was doing to be able to get out the door.
While at therapy, time seemed to slow down. And when it comes to the times when you have a lot to say, and only an hour to do it in, having time slow-down is a good thing. I unburdened myself, engaged in active conversations with my therapist and processed her suggestions and advice. By the time my appointment was over, I was feeling fatigued. Who knew that therapy could take so much out of a person. A stop to get bloodwork was next (checking my hormone levels, so I know if I need my recharge) and much to my dismay I missed the phlebotomist. After leaving, I stopped for a coffee for a pick me up and help get me through the traffic that I was bound to sit in traveling home.
What seemed like an hour later at the grocery store, I am leaving with half a trunk full of groceries and I am just purely exhausted. Thinking about having to make dinner when I get home makes me want to cry. I just need some down time, but it’s dinner time so that’s just not going to work for me.
Attempting to get in the front door was like trying to get past Fort Knocks. And that was my breaking point. I was tired, and I had to pee so bad, if I sneezed I’d flood my pants. I get all worked up over not being able to unlock the door and when I finally make my way through the door I barked out the order to get the groceries to the kids. My family senses my mood and steers clear of me. After peeing and changing I resurface to the kitchen to put away the groceries to find that they were already put away.
Not sure what look I had on my face, but with my back to my partner, I feel a hand on my arm and I am pulled into an embrace. He just stands there and hugs me. Rubs my back and holds me tight. I finally take a deep breath and let it out. I feel incredibly safe and secure. I can feel the hectic, stressful, busy day just slowly drain from my body. I look up at him and kiss his lips. He knows me so well. He knows when I need to talk, when I need to be left alone and he knows when I need a hug.
From that moment moving forward, I was better. I was no longer pissy, or exhausted beyond belief. I felt content and happy to be home with my family.
When you are dealing with an emotionally charged individual it can be quite difficult to know what to do and when to do it. Our support system may be confused on what they should do to help us, and we may not know what we need or how to ask for it.
Psychology Today provided a very good, short article on ways to provide emotional support to our loved ones. You can access it from this link: https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/emotional-fitness/201112/10-ways-get-and-give-emotional-support
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