Due to the busyness of the everyday lives that we live, we don’t often take the time to socialize with our friends. When you have children, most of your focus is spent on your offspring and we tend to neglect our own personal needs. I believe it is incredibly healthy to set time aside to spend quality time with those that are within our support system.
Girls Night Out often holds a negative stereotype of women dressed up in seductive outfits, letting their hair down physically and metaphorically, and engaging in risky behavior due to being “kept” for an extended period. However, this is not always the case, at least in my own personal experience.
I planned a Girls Night Out for Saturday night as my partner would be out of town and I wanted to spend time with my friends. Yes, we did put extra effort into what we wore, and there was elaborate planning that went into the event. However, it was not a drunken, flirting, over the top event.
The night started out with bowling and I was in heaven. The alley blasted great tunage from the 90’s and was a clean facility with amazing and attentive staff. Following bowling was hopping between a couple of dance clubish bars.
I am not writing to tell you about my night out, there is a catch. I was sick most of the night which put a major damper on things. I was nauseous and sick to my stomach. This was not the flu that has been going around or because I had too much to drink. This was the result of an increase in medication following my psychiatry appointment on Friday. To combat the nearly debilitating anxiety that I have been suffering while driving, we chose to increase my Lithium. The new dose started Friday night and I began feeling the effects of the increase on Saturday.
Being on medication effects my everyday life. Last night it was glaringly obvious that my life is affected due to my medication and the mental illness of Bipolar Disorder. I have had to make changes to my life as result of the diagnosis and the medication that I am on. I have been stubborn with making some suggested changes due to my refusal to give up all the things that I love. However, there are times when my body makes it incredibly clear that it does and doesn’t want certain things.
I must remind myself that I need to listen to my body and when necessary make changes based on what my body says. Being a hard-headed person in general, I have lived with the mentality of I will do what I want when I want and how I want, with no regard to whether this is good for my overall wellbeing. It is a new year and I am in a different place than I was this time last year, or even a month ago. I can not change the fact that I have Bipolar Disorder and that I need to be on medication to maintain stability. I do have the control over the choices that I make. I was disappointed that I was not feeling well last night and did not have the over the top time that I was expecting to have. But, I still had a good time, enjoyed getting dressed up and socializing with my friends.
There is room for a socially fulfilling life with Bipolar Disorder, but it may have to be adjusted and slightly massaged to meet the new “normal” of my life. Today, I start the process of accepting this and to relent in my fighting against it.