In 1982 a movie called Annie was released. It was about a little red headed girl, Annie, who lives in an orphanage. There was a song that she sang while in the orphanage that would help her on the days where she was feeling down. Below are some of the lyrics:
The sun’ll come out tomorrow
Bet your bottom dollar that tomorrow, there’ll be sun
Just thinkin’ about tomorrow clears away the cobwebs,
And the sorrow ’til there’s none
When I’m stuck with a day that’s gray, and lonely,
I just stick out my chin and Grin, and say,
Oh the sun’ll come out tomorrow
So ya gotta hang on ’til tomorrow
Come what may tomorrow, tomorrow I love ya tomorrow
You’re always a day away
I often think of this song and sing what lyrics I do know when I am facing challenges. As I tell myself that this is temporary, and things will change (hopefully by tomorrow), I think about the proverbial sun coming out tomorrow. Now, I live in a place where we have nearly 300 sunny days per year, so it is most likely that yes indeed Annie, the sun will come out tomorrow, especially where I live. But, with mental health issues, or any chronic ailments, it can be frustrating to go through the challenging times. It is even harder to be patient while we wait for the storm to pass. However, the sun WILL come out, if not tomorrow, perhaps the following day, or even Wednesday of next week.
Today, I am feeling like the clouds have started to part. I can see oh Mr. Shining sun working his magic to share his sun rays and blanket the earth with his warmth and happiness. I am laughing, and I can think clearly. I am getting a break from the relentless, debilitating anxiety, and I am not feeling depressed. It appears that the new, increased medication is kicking in, and as much as I am worried about the side effects (of course, weight gain) I am thankful for the increase that has given me my sanity back.
I am working to enjoy this moment. The moment where I have clarity and calm as I never know how long they will last. Many people say we don’t know how much time we have on this earth and we should treat each day as a gift. And for this, I could not agree more. Tomorrow, there is the chance that I may wake up with mania, or even depression. So, I will force myself to enjoy what I have right now, in this moment, at this time, because it could be gone tomorrow.
I am thankful that I was able to see the warning signs of the Bipolar Disorder and I was able to get in to see my doctor before things got more out of control and therefore would have taken longer to correct. I am beyond blessed to have a treatment team that works with me and takes everything I have to say seriously. I am also gifted with a wonderful support system that consists of family, friends and co-workers. I would not be where I am today had it not been for the people that I have surround me with love, patience, forgiveness and support.
Today I am in a place of gratitude and positivity. I wish that all others could be in this place as well because it is cozy and safe. Blessings to you, wherever you may be in your journey. Trust your journey and remember that the sun WILL come out tomorrow!