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Aches and Pains

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A storm front rolled into our area over night.  I recalled hearing that the weather would be changing at some point this week, but I did not take the time to look up the weather to see when this change was supposed to actually take place.  One benefit of living in the southwest is that the weather really doesn’t change much.  It’s bloody hot during the summer months and during the winter months it is cooler and usually afternoon highs range from 60-70 degrees.  And that is our weather.

Today, the normally cloudless blue sky is grey.  Clouds rolled in and brought a change in pressure.  I knew this had happened this morning, even before drawing the blinds.  See, I woke up with a killer sinus headache, watery eyes, pressure in my sinuses and a running nose.  It’s already hard to get out of the bed in the morning for me.  I am alone in the morning and usually snuggled in tight from a night of glorious sleep and getting me to get myself out of bed seems to be nearly impossible during the week.  I am not sure if it’s the knowing I have to be somewhere that just makes my body reject all notion of emerging from my safety and comfort or if it’s the fact that it’s before 10 am and I am really just not a morning person.  Regardless, this morning, I was simply miserable and found it that much harder to get myself moving.

When I made it to the kitchen and stood in front of the coffee maker, I poured my coffee and took a sip. It was just barely warm.  With the cup in my hands, I looked out the window and saw the sky.  And that’s when it all made sense.  The aching head, sinuses and ears are all linked to the change in the weather.  Oh heaven’s be!

In addition to the sinus pain and pressure, the pain that was a pretty consistent resident in my neck, was trying to come back and make up it’s little home in the base of my neck and reaching up the back of my skull.  This is a horrific pain, one that removes the strength that I often encompass, and brings me to being completely distracted by the discomfort and basically unable to function.  This pain, the pain in the neck, is returning.

Today, I have found myself feeling like crap and being a little fussy as result.  However, when I look at the broader picture, I want to encourage myself to make sure I keep things in perspective.  The fact is that I am in a good place mood wise.  Also, that the pain in my neck diminished after working through the trauma work from the treatment program that I was participating in mid November and has not fully returned for several weeks.  The weather does not change that much where I live and therefore this feeling of illness is not common and I know once the rain comes tonight, that the effects of the pressure change on my body will pass.  Much like the storm came in overnight, it will most likely leave in the same notion, a stranger coming and going throughout the night.

I learned that I have it pretty good and I am feeling quite blessed as we enter into this very busy part of the diminishing year.  Having just completed the Thanksgiving holiday I know that I am quite thankful for all that I have in my life.  And moving into this time of giving, I also know that I have so much to be grateful for.  One day of feeling like crap is a gift compared to the days and weeks that used to be filled with fibromyalgia flares, accompanied by endometriosis attacks.  My life has been much improved, and today, on the day when I really, really want to be in bed, I am focusing on all the wonderous things that fill my day and my life.

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