What is the saying for lemons? Is it the lemons don’t fall far from the tree? Or a bad lemon spoils the bunch? Oh yeah, I don’t think it is either one of those. Let me think, oh yeah, it’s “if life gives you lemons, make lemonade!”
I have had numerous lemons given to me, perhaps a number of boxes or a crate or a dump truck full. Therefore, I have made a ton of lemonade, so to speak. At this point in time, I am sick of lemonade. It’s either sour or sweet and I’ve also had enough cavities from all that sugar!
I recently celebrated a birthday. I am smack dab in the middle of my 30’s. And boy things are going down hill (literally) fast. I am noticing changes that I am not thrilled about.
I recently went to the optometrist because I was having a horrible time with night vision. It made driving feel risky and I was struggling with even allowing my self to drive at night. I already have driving anxiety so it was exemplified due to the problems with the night vision. After seeing the doctor I found out that my eye sight was now increasingly worse and this occurred over a short amount of time (4 months to be precise). The new prescription will clear everything up, literally speaking, and for this I am grateful.
However, I took this news hard. The change in the astigmatism is probably from age. But, the overall prescription change is most likely caused by my medication change. I was in tears conversating with my spouse about how frustrated I was with the side effects of medication. And how I was struggling with the fact that I have a condition that is not curable and will require medication for the rest of my life. In that conversation I was reassured that I am doing really well, symptomatically speaking.
Through my tears, runny nose and mascara trailing down my cheeks, I had to stop and take in what he said. The truth is this is the most stable I have ever been. And with the change in medication I was actually able to lose a quarter of the weight that I have gained over the last four years. My anxiety is decreasing and the irritability is extremely low and almost non-existent.
With this thinking, I am making lemonade. And I am making it the way that I like it, and that’s with a little bit of ice tea in it. It’s easy to get caught up in how many lemons you get in life. To dwell on the unfairness of life and pout about the crap that has flowed downhill. But, I have found that stopping, taking a breath and then thinking before acting is what is helping me succeed.
Today I am trying to embody a sense of peace and lightness. To connect with my inner being and find solace in my soul.