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Thoughts on pandemics & kiddos

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Behind the green curtain is a Bella that spends much of the time focusing on what needs to be managed in order to make it through each day.  It takes a lot of energy to manage bipolar, general anxiety disorder and PTSD.  There’s taking the combination of medications morning and night.  Balancing waking and sleeping hours.  Ensuring one is engaging in basic self-care.  Throw in a full-time job, a loving family, and I have pretty much hit my bandwidth.

Underneath it all, I consider myself to be an empathic person.  I feel strong emotions and when someone is in pain, I feel it intensely.  Over the last month, with the pandemic in place, the empathic feelings have been somewhat unbearable.

An area where I am feeling immense feelings is in my own “backyard”.  There is business after business struggling.  Some have laid off nearly all employees and are operating on a skeleton crew.  Larger corporations have reduced work forces.  So many people without jobs, incomes, but have bills to pay.  It just breaks my heart.

Then there are our children.  They have been home for what, a month?  I think at this point the joy of being home has lost its luster.  Without the structure of school, life is incomplete for the kiddos.  There is the absence of interaction with friends and acquaintances.  Let us not forget about the bond that the students have with their teachers.  The teachers spend most of a year with the students, the teachers become their mentors.

In another bucket are teenagers.  Their year has been severely uprooted.  Although

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interacting and participating with their online schooling, it is not the same.  They are not in their hard and uncomfortable seats, with the backpacks at their feet, in the atmospheres that they have come to know well over the last several years.  The interaction with friends, so critical at this age, is quite limited, downgraded to a video call and chat, but not the same as being in person.

The double whammy is the fact that May has always a big month, especially for older teenagers.  It’s the month that typically holds proms, the delivery of yearbooks and commencement ceremonies.  This year there will be no proms, who knows how the kids will get their yearbooks and the verdict is still out about the graduation ceremony.

It’s been a rough month.  It has been quite challenging for me, for sure.  I know that this pandemic is affecting each and every person, in a number of different ways, both young and old.

“A tree does not stop growing because the wind blew off a few of its leaves.”

― Matshona Dhliwayo

6 thoughts on “Thoughts on pandemics & kiddos”

  1. This pandemic has turned out world topsy-turvy for sure, but WOW, what a life lesson, for teens, parents, everyone! Simply put, life is unpredictable! We can plan and prepare for every little detail we can think of, but everything can change without warning. This is our opportunity learn how to be flexible, to switch gears quickly, to adapt and over come. Think on our feet, think outside the box of normalcy. A time to appreciate all the things we so easily take for granted.
    On the other side of all of this, just like those that have blazed trails before us, we will be stronger, more cautious, maybe more cynical, hopefully more compassionate, and have great (albeit conflicting) stories to tell about how we were able to survive the quarantine of 2020; forced to spend HOURS together, attending classes and meetings via ZOOM, shop online and wear masks while accepting delivery of our groceries!
    You got this one too Lil Roo! Love you!!

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    1. Thank you my dear mama…i have learned so much over the last number of weeks. My life will forever not be the same. Each day, I make changes to better my life, given the circumstances. Every day I realize how blessed that I am and the deep deep love I have for my family.

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