Sitting. Shaking. Mind Racing. Legs restless. Nauseated. Head pounding. Tears running.
Simply put, I feel like I am in hell.
Sitting, but wanting to run.
Shaking, but trying to distract myself.
Mind racing, so many thoughts, things to do, places to go, the pure, angelic desire to have peace and quiet in the space between my ears.
Legs trying to run… not staying still, moving about, being a complete nuisance.
So sick to my stomach, trying to eat but futile.
Head, its pounding, it’s thump thump thumping…
The tears, the not that I am sad tears, but the I am so incredibly frustrated tears.
Is this all from the new medication?
Is this all from withdrawing off the old medication?
So many questions, but all I want to know if when am I going to feel better.
When will there be peace, calm and balance over my body.
I sit and I pray.