Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, recovery

Each day is a gift

Within the last two months someone I knew from my childhood and growing up years passed away suddenly at a young age.  I was presently not close to this person but found out about her passing through social media.  It hurt my heart immensely. I hurt for her spouse and her family.  She was young… Continue reading Each day is a gift

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, recovery, therapy

The calm after the storm

As I sit before this blank document my mind swirls with thoughts.  So much has happened since I last posted a blog and I don’t exactly know where to begin.  Babbling has been on the back burned as my mental health took a turn for the worse and it was an “all hands on deck”… Continue reading The calm after the storm

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, recovery

Where in the World is Carmen San Diego?

Do you remember the game, Where in the World is Carmen San Diego?  It’s from back in the 90’s and it was my favorite.  Maybe second favorite to Oregon Trail, but I always seemed to die from dysentery in that game, and there was no dying in Carmen San Diego, so that is probably why… Continue reading Where in the World is Carmen San Diego?

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, recovery, therapy, Uncategorized

A Babbles Babble

I have so many thoughts, and they are not flowing in any semblance of order today.  There is no rhyme or reason to what is coming to my mind.  It is kind of like a popcorn machine making a batch.  Here is an idea, there is another, and then a third.  Nothing brings them together,… Continue reading A Babbles Babble

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, recovery, therapy

Growth

Photo by Alena Koval on Pexels.com I have been thinking, a lot.  Like all the time, very much so stuck in my head. I have seen a continued improvement in my mood and overall composure, but still very much so stuck in my head.  I am learning more about mindfulness and am working to apply… Continue reading Growth

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, recovery, Uncategorized

Worst Bad Days

In 2016 I thought that I had the worst of bad days when I was going through this rough patch diagnosed as severe rapid cycling bi polar with psychosis post-hysterectomy.  How could that be what’s “wrong” with me? I don’t have mental illness. “I’m fine”. It was the worst of bad days.  Followed by many, many… Continue reading Worst Bad Days

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, recovery

I am not ready…

I am not ready. Not ready for a slew of things. Whether it’s getting up, showered, and dressed (good ole depression) or heading into work sitting in traffic and actually working. I am not ready to get older or for my kids to grow up (more). Im not ready to have relationships change even for… Continue reading I am not ready…

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, recovery

To Do Lists

What would I do without my to do list?  Whether it is scratched out on a note pad, on a lined legal pad or typed in my phone.  Photo by Breakingpic on Pexels.com No major surprise but I would be lost, aimlessly wondering, staring at my computer screen blankly. Over the last number of years… Continue reading To Do Lists

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, recovery

Day 44: Days Explained

Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com It has been a few posts since I did “the countdown” … the “countdown” that I never explained (or have I forgotten ?!?) It is day 44 since the breakdown that started this here spiral into rapid cycling that has tried (yes, tried being the most important word) to ruin… Continue reading Day 44: Days Explained

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, recovery, Uncategorized

Love is patient

I have written about love in the past, but it has been heavy on my heart to write about it again. I do not know where I fall on the religious spectrum.  I was raised in a Christian household and primarily in the Southern Baptist Church.  There were many good years spent at this place… Continue reading Love is patient