Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, recovery, Uncategorized

Bella’s Babbles: Saturday Edition 06/22/19

Up, Up and Away… no I am not a balloon, but on an airplane at the present moment in aisle seven.  We had a 6 AM flight, yes, you read that correctly, and no I did not know that they had flights that early either, but they do and there are people crazy enough to… Continue reading Bella’s Babbles: Saturday Edition 06/22/19

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, Uncategorized

The Haves and the Have Nots

In life there are the haves and the have nots. That can be people and that can mean things, or even experiences. Currently, I am a little caught up in this conundrum.  It very well could be due to the fact that I am bouncing between mania and depression, and my brain is not processing… Continue reading The Haves and the Have Nots

Bipolar Disorder

Manic Butterflies

The sitting. But then there's the movement. And how can I not mention the mental buzzing. There’s the lethargy, and exhaustion, but at the same time a desire to run, to run like the wind and to not stop until your legs give out and you topple over, face planting onto the hot, dirty pavement.… Continue reading Manic Butterflies

Bipolar Disorder

Mother’s Day

I have been thinking about Mother’s Day for a while now.  I have had this heavy burden on my heart.  I know that it is supposed to be a joyous holiday, a gleeful day, a day spent with smiles and hugs.  But I am struggling.   I keep thinking about the people who have lost… Continue reading Mother’s Day

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, recovery, Uncategorized

Driving in the Rain

Today, much to my surprise, it was raining when I left for work.  Although it is still technically spring, where I live in the desert, it does not rain often, so it was quite a pleasant surprise.  And, since I never check the weather, it is always a surprise to me when the weather strays… Continue reading Driving in the Rain

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, Uncategorized

When Symptoms Return: Anxiety

  This weekend was one where I did not have anything that was set in stone as far as activities go.  After several weeks of having one thing after another planned, it was a weekend where my partner and I looked at each other and said, “What do you want to do?” And we just… Continue reading When Symptoms Return: Anxiety

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, recovery, therapy, Uncategorized

Love Made Me Do It

What is the thing deep down inside of you that motivates you to do what you do? Well, for me, sometimes it is fear, others it is spite. At times it’s stupidity or loyalty.  However more often than not, love is the reason that I act the way that I do.   Sunday, I had… Continue reading Love Made Me Do It