Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, Uncategorized

Cupcakes After Dark

The room is dark.  The cat is in his place on the floor at the foot of the bed.  The sound machine fills the room with the sound of a glorious rain storm.  I face my partner and I mention that I was not tired.  I shared that I was thinking of all the things… Continue reading Cupcakes After Dark

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The Sun Will Come Out Tomorrow

  In 1982 a movie called Annie was released.  It was about a little red headed girl, Annie, who lives in an orphanage.  There was a song that she sang while in the orphanage that would help her on the days where she was feeling down.  Below are some of the lyrics: The sun'll come… Continue reading The Sun Will Come Out Tomorrow

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Medical Withdrawal

Friday afternoon I sat on the couch that was opposite my doctor.  She looked at my file (large, filled with numerous pages depicting my numerous visits).  She looked up and said, if you are back this soon, something must not be going very well.  I sighed (I hate sighing, I hate when others sigh, but… Continue reading Medical Withdrawal

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Today is a Good Day

The last month has been filled with excitement, energy, loneliness and sadness.  The mania was exhilarating and misleading in that they felt like out of this world amazing days.  The depression was heavy and daunting, making me feel anger and major frustration.  And then there is now… I am back on an upswing, perhaps it’s… Continue reading Today is a Good Day

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The Doctor Will See You Now

It had been six weeks since I saw my doctor last, the longest I have gone without seeing my psychiatrist in the past.  Everything had been going ok during the time between visits until it wasn’t ok.  And it was the instability that I had experienced in the previous weeks that had me worried about… Continue reading The Doctor Will See You Now

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Fighting Depression

After sleeping some 13 hours (yes you are reading that correctly) from Friday into Saturday morning, I was determined that I was going to take an assertive attack on the depression that was lurking over my head like a dark cloud.  It was during the consumption of a cup of coffee that I devised my… Continue reading Fighting Depression