Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, recovery

Where in the World is Carmen San Diego?

Do you remember the game, Where in the World is Carmen San Diego?  It’s from back in the 90’s and it was my favorite.  Maybe second favorite to Oregon Trail, but I always seemed to die from dysentery in that game, and there was no dying in Carmen San Diego, so that is probably why… Continue reading Where in the World is Carmen San Diego?

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, recovery, therapy, Uncategorized

A Babbles Babble

I have so many thoughts, and they are not flowing in any semblance of order today.  There is no rhyme or reason to what is coming to my mind.  It is kind of like a popcorn machine making a batch.  Here is an idea, there is another, and then a third.  Nothing brings them together,… Continue reading A Babbles Babble

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, recovery, therapy


Photo by Alena Koval on I have been thinking, a lot.  Like all the time, very much so stuck in my head. I have seen a continued improvement in my mood and overall composure, but still very much so stuck in my head.  I am learning more about mindfulness and am working to apply… Continue reading Growth

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life


I have been in seclusion and it has been sometime since I have created a blog entry.  The ability to write was not present as I was facing trials and tribulations.  There just was not bandwidth to write.  Plus, for once in my life, I had nothing to say. I am not going to go… Continue reading Resurfacing

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, recovery, Uncategorized

Worst Bad Days

In 2016 I thought that I had the worst of bad days when I was going through this rough patch diagnosed as severe rapid cycling bi polar with psychosis post-hysterectomy.  How could that be what’s “wrong” with me? I don’t have mental illness. “I’m fine”. It was the worst of bad days.  Followed by many, many… Continue reading Worst Bad Days

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life

A broken arm

Photo by ThisIsEngineering on Let’s say I was roller blading (which anyone my age should NOT do) and I fell.  I ran into a trashcan and I flipped and landed on my arm.  It snapped, just like a wishbone. Should this have happened I would go to the hospital and I would get it… Continue reading A broken arm

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life

Sitting Waiting Looking Anticipating

SittingWaiting LookingAnticipating  The anxiety that ensues when you are waiting to see a doctor. A new doctor mind you. A proclaimed expert doctor. A doctor that may be able to tell you something new or the same as what you’ve heard before. Time and time again. It’s the wondering. The thinking of who is this person. Do… Continue reading Sitting Waiting Looking Anticipating

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, Uncategorized

Manic Babbles

I have started three blogs so far today: One blog consisted of Kacey Musgrave lyrics, another one talked about snakes sloughing off their skin.  And the third talked about anxiety being a large dark monster that is engulfing me. As I keep writing, the words are going everywhere, this way and that way, all zig… Continue reading Manic Babbles

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, Uncategorized

Rapid Cycling Bipolar

Rapid Cycling Bipolar I find to be peculiar. One part of a day, I am so exhausted I feel like I have cement boots on and can hardly walk. Then other parts of the day I want to make 1,000 cloth face masks while making cupcakes. The end of last year I was in treatment… Continue reading Rapid Cycling Bipolar

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, recovery, Uncategorized

Friday Babbles: A Dry Well

There are many times that I have much to say but don’t end up writing. I stop myself from typing because what I have to say is not uplifting and edifying and I fear that I will not be a positive influence on others and therefore what I want to write should not be published.… Continue reading Friday Babbles: A Dry Well