Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, recovery, Uncategorized

Hidden Blessings

This weekend I spent time doing numerous things: I napped (gloriousness, I tell you, pure heaven) I went to the gym (Not quite gloriousness, but a good experience that made me feel proud of my accomplishment) Tidying up parts of my home (again felt pride and accomplishment for getting things done off my to do… Continue reading Hidden Blessings

Bipolar Disorder, hiking, Uncategorized

A Memorial Hike

Five years ago today, I lost a mentor and friend of mine to cancer. It was a hard loss.  She was young, and so was I. A lot went down when she passed, and I think that made things extra hard.  I was grieving a lot more than just her, but some innocence too. It… Continue reading A Memorial Hike

Bipolar Disorder, recovery, Uncategorized

Blanket Monsters

When I was young, and I could not face the world, I would go to my room and I would hide beneath my blanket, sitting on my floor, with my blanket pulled over my head.  In my head, no one could see me, I was safe, and I was in my own world, numb to… Continue reading Blanket Monsters

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, Uncategorized

Sandcastles

I remember as a child going to the ocean.  Packing the car, so snug we could barely move, everything we needed, and only what we needed, for a week’s vacation, in a small compact sedan for a family of five to make a 3-hour drive to the coast.  I personally dreaded the drive, squeezed in… Continue reading Sandcastles

Bipolar Disorder, Uncategorized

Monsoons and Moodswings

Where I live, we have storms called Monsoons.  There are mainly dust storms, but sometimes are accompanied with rain, and massive wind.  What makes them unique is the fact that it can be bright and sunny in one part of the sky, pitch dark in another place, torrential down pour of rain in one area… Continue reading Monsoons and Moodswings

Bipolar Disorder, Uncategorized

Counting Down the Minutes

I have attempted to write all day. I started and stopped.  Erased and retyped.  Started over and added to. It is just not coming out of my brain and onto paper for me today.   It is Friday. It is the last Friday, the end of a long month, a day where the exhaustion is… Continue reading Counting Down the Minutes

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, Uncategorized

Truths…

It’s been a while since I have taken the time to sit down and write.  True. I have not been feeling motivated to write. True. I don’t feel like I have had much creativity over the last few weeks. True. I have been struggling to make it through the workday.  True. I have been sleeping… Continue reading Truths…

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, recovery, Uncategorized

The Sun Will Come Out Tomorrow (again)

This morning was rough, I was totally dragging butt.  I found it nearly impossible to function.  I felt heavy, lethargic, in capable to move and words can not begin to describe how I struggled to think.  But, I fought through it. I chose a “get out of jail free card” and worked from home in… Continue reading The Sun Will Come Out Tomorrow (again)

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, Uncategorized

My Friend is Depressed: What Do I Do?

I originally wrote this back in May 2018 as a guest blogger on another site, but wanted to share it on my personal site as I feel a strong need to share it today... I have suffered from depression on and off for much of my life.  Some episodes have been worse than others.  But… Continue reading My Friend is Depressed: What Do I Do?

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, Uncategorized

Rounding the Bases

It’s baseball season, or so I have heard.  I am not the biggest fan of watching baseball, but I do like to play.  Although I am not very good.  I swing and I miss.  I run and I am not fast enough.  I try and catch the ball and I hide because I am afraid… Continue reading Rounding the Bases