Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, Uncategorized

Feeling all fancy dancy~

Its day three of wearing a dress to work.  Mind you I am wearing leggings with them, so it’s still quite comfy and I pair them with boots, so it’s not like I am all fancy with tights and stilettos or anything, but it’s still a dress. Yesterday was my birthday, so I for sure… Continue reading Feeling all fancy dancy~

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, Uncategorized

Accidentally Feeling Better

Last night I faced a problem.  I did not have enough 25 mg tablets to total the 50mg that I needed to make the prescription that was prescribed by my doctor of Topamax.  However, I had a 100mg tablet.  Now, a rational, logical person would say, just cut the 100mg tablet in half, problem solved. … Continue reading Accidentally Feeling Better

Everyday Life, hiking, Uncategorized

Mud on my shoes

When you walk, and let’s say you end up walking through some mud, and also let’s say that your foot gets stuck in the puddle of mud that you inadvertently walked through (it appears you were not paying much attention when you started on your walk), it makes the walk that much more difficult.  With… Continue reading Mud on my shoes

Bipolar Disorder, Uncategorized

Signs of Depression

You know depression is settling in when: You feel the weight of the air on your body. That lukewarm tired feeling, like having a low-grade fever. Feeling bad enough to not feel like yourself but not bad enough to call in sick from work. Experiencing the feeling of sadness but being unable to cry. Looking… Continue reading Signs of Depression

Bipolar Disorder, Uncategorized

Blank Pages

I sit and stare at a blank page. Thoughts dash through my head, darting left and right, up and down. With all that’s going through my head one would think that I would be more than capable of transposing the combination of letters into sentences down on paper. But alas, the page is blank. I… Continue reading Blank Pages

Bipolar Disorder, Uncategorized

When Depression Hits

It’s been sneaking up, slow and steady like a mouse strategically hunting for a piece of cheese.  Or a predator going after a fast-moving prey.  But before I knew it, I was overcome by the gloom.  Although fighting it hard, at this point, I have little to no fight left in me.  The weight and… Continue reading When Depression Hits

Bipolar Disorder, Uncategorized

Mania: The Blanket Monster

They sit on the floor of her bedroom, over by the corner of the bed.  There’s a blanket over her head and she is crying.  It has been another poor day.  Another day of unexplained moodiness and temper tantrums.  She describes it as feeling the emotions come up from her toes and then burst out… Continue reading Mania: The Blanket Monster