Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life

Nightly Routine: Medication

I take my medication at night. Its part of my routine. I open the glass cabinet door and I take a deep breath. I start from the far right of the shelf and I work my way down.  One pill onto the next.  Take two then a sip of water.  Another two, then another sip… Continue reading Nightly Routine: Medication

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, Uncategorized

New Patient Intake Forms

I never find joy in filling out new patient in take forms.  I always seem to find that there is not enough room for, well, anything.  Perhaps it is because I write too large, but there is not enough room for my full name, or my complete street address, city and state.  I start writing… Continue reading New Patient Intake Forms

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, Uncategorized

Accidentally Feeling Better

Last night I faced a problem.  I did not have enough 25 mg tablets to total the 50mg that I needed to make the prescription that was prescribed by my doctor of Topamax.  However, I had a 100mg tablet.  Now, a rational, logical person would say, just cut the 100mg tablet in half, problem solved. … Continue reading Accidentally Feeling Better

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, Uncategorized

A Reflection from Today

There are days where I just want to be in bed. To hide under my covers. The act of being hidden, to be unseen, to disappear, that is all that my brain can concentrate on. And on nearly all occasions when I feel this way, I am in no way, whatsoever, able to do what… Continue reading A Reflection from Today

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, Uncategorized

Pots on the Stove

It’s an overcast day and it is actually drizzling, which is uncommon where I live, as I live in the desert and we get very little rain.  The rain is a nice change, but its gloomy and it has left me wishing that I had the gull to lay down the money and buy a… Continue reading Pots on the Stove

Everyday Life, hiking, Uncategorized

Mud on my shoes

When you walk, and let’s say you end up walking through some mud, and also let’s say that your foot gets stuck in the puddle of mud that you inadvertently walked through (it appears you were not paying much attention when you started on your walk), it makes the walk that much more difficult.  With… Continue reading Mud on my shoes

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, Uncategorized

Back to the Future

Anticipatory anxiety is when a person experiences anxiety about something that is going or about to happen.  It’s about something that we are making up in our heads.  This is the definition as per Michelle, not per Webster or Merriam dictionary, it’s based on my understanding.  I do it quite often, the whole anticipatory anxiety… Continue reading Back to the Future