The sitting. But then there's the movement. And how can I not mention the mental buzzing. There’s the lethargy, and exhaustion, but at the same time a desire to run, to run like the wind and to not stop until your legs give out and you topple over, face planting onto the hot, dirty pavement.… Continue reading Manic Butterflies
Tag: Bipolar Disorder
Nightly Routine: Medication
I take my medication at night. Its part of my routine. I open the glass cabinet door and I take a deep breath. I start from the far right of the shelf and I work my way down. One pill onto the next. Take two then a sip of water. Another two, then another sip… Continue reading Nightly Routine: Medication
New Patient Intake Forms
I never find joy in filling out new patient in take forms. I always seem to find that there is not enough room for, well, anything. Perhaps it is because I write too large, but there is not enough room for my full name, or my complete street address, city and state. I start writing… Continue reading New Patient Intake Forms
Accidentally Feeling Better
Last night I faced a problem. I did not have enough 25 mg tablets to total the 50mg that I needed to make the prescription that was prescribed by my doctor of Topamax. However, I had a 100mg tablet. Now, a rational, logical person would say, just cut the 100mg tablet in half, problem solved. … Continue reading Accidentally Feeling Better
A Reflection from Today
There are days where I just want to be in bed. To hide under my covers. The act of being hidden, to be unseen, to disappear, that is all that my brain can concentrate on. And on nearly all occasions when I feel this way, I am in no way, whatsoever, able to do what… Continue reading A Reflection from Today
Pots on the Stove
It’s an overcast day and it is actually drizzling, which is uncommon where I live, as I live in the desert and we get very little rain. The rain is a nice change, but its gloomy and it has left me wishing that I had the gull to lay down the money and buy a… Continue reading Pots on the Stove
Mud on my shoes
When you walk, and let’s say you end up walking through some mud, and also let’s say that your foot gets stuck in the puddle of mud that you inadvertently walked through (it appears you were not paying much attention when you started on your walk), it makes the walk that much more difficult. With… Continue reading Mud on my shoes
