Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, Uncategorized

Face masks and more

Last night, I FaceTimed with my parents, which is great, but it’s not the same as being with them in person.  One may think our separation is due to COVID-19, and that has a part to do with it.  Another part is that we live on opposite coasts.  It’s been more than 3 years since… Continue reading Face masks and more

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, recovery, Uncategorized

Relief

Relief is a noun defined as a feeling of reassurance and relaxation following release from anxiety or distress. Simply stated, I am feeling relief. One may say, how is that possible in a time like now?  With all that is going on, for heaven’s sake we are in the middle of a pandemic.  How are… Continue reading Relief

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, recovery, Uncategorized

My Eyes Have Been Opened

  I have chosen to not speak about the pandemic that has come and taken over the world, like a masked villain whose sole purpose is to cause havoc upon the city.  I have found that it is hard to get away from what’s happening in the world right now.  There are updates constantly on… Continue reading My Eyes Have Been Opened

Everyday Life, Uncategorized

When there are no babbles

The below was composed yesterday, but inadvertently not posted.  Babbles HAVE returned, but slowly and not so gracefully. Yesterday I was struggling to write.  I was overcome with emotions and thoughts.  However, when it came to placing them on paper, it just wasn’t working.  I was off, just not in the right place to write. … Continue reading When there are no babbles

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, recovery, therapy, Uncategorized

Bella’s Big Adventure: Two Sleeps

I have two nights remaining, or two sleeps, that’s the way we used to count down the days until Christmas, by the number of sleeps.  I have two sleeps until I leave for treatment. My to do list is starting to get shorter.  The pile of things to pack is getting taller.  The exhaustion is… Continue reading Bella’s Big Adventure: Two Sleeps

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, recovery, therapy, Uncategorized

Bella’s Big Adventure: Perspective

The days are passing quickly.  I suspect that it is due to being so busy.  However, I feel like I am barely keeping my head above water so to speak, only getting done the bare minimum and my head is swimming with what still needs to be done before I leave for my big adventure.… Continue reading Bella’s Big Adventure: Perspective

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, recovery, therapy, Uncategorized

Bella’s Big Adventure

In less than two weeks I am going on an adventure.  There could be lions, tigers, or bears (oh my!~)  It was suggested that I pack light and there was a whole list of what to bring, and an even longer list of what not to bring, and I am stressing over the whole packing… Continue reading Bella’s Big Adventure

Bipolar Disorder, recovery, Uncategorized

Blanket Monsters

When I was young, and I could not face the world, I would go to my room and I would hide beneath my blanket, sitting on my floor, with my blanket pulled over my head.  In my head, no one could see me, I was safe, and I was in my own world, numb to… Continue reading Blanket Monsters

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, recovery, Uncategorized

Anti-Anxiety Cat Napping Music Swaying

After a long weekend of embracing my inner cat (sleeping, napping, and sleeping some more), it is back to the work week and being human which consists of wearing form fitting clothes, a for-real bra, and make-up.  Every part of me thinks that the weekend went by too quickly and my inner cat still wants… Continue reading Anti-Anxiety Cat Napping Music Swaying

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, recovery, Uncategorized

An Apple a Day…

There’s the old adage that an apple a day keeps the doctor away, and for the life of me I am not sure if eating an apple a day ACTUALLY keeps a doctor away.  I used to eat apples, but they never kept the doctor away, so I gave up because you know I am… Continue reading An Apple a Day…