Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, recovery, Uncategorized

Bella’s Babbles: Sunday Edition 4/21/2019

It’s been one of those weeks, namely two weeks, where the days fold into the nights and it seems that I am waking, running around like a chicken with my head cut out, passing out for 8 hours and then doing it all again.  Hence the lack of blogs, and precisely the reason why I… Continue reading Bella’s Babbles: Sunday Edition 4/21/2019

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, Uncategorized

From Defeated to Delighted

The beginning of the week I had enough.  I was beyond frustrated.  I was incredibly pissed off.  I was hating the world.  The week started off on a rough footing and I was just done.  I wanted to hide under a blanket and just hide until the storm passed.  I wanted to throw in the… Continue reading From Defeated to Delighted

Bipolar Disorder, endometriosis, Everyday Life, recovery, Uncategorized

Knocked Down and Feeling Out

I sat on the couch today and there was something a little bit different in the air.  A heaviness.  Was it me or was it her?  Was it just the room?  It was a Monday morning, mid-morning, so maybe that was it. Our interaction was not what is usually was.  I gave my report as… Continue reading Knocked Down and Feeling Out

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, Uncategorized

Getting to the Bottom Line

Over the last few months I have been dealing with this bothersome anxiety that just wont go away.  It is increasingly getting worse, or so it seems, not sure if it is getting worse or my tolerance is decreasing, or a combination of both.  Trying to pinpoint the nature of the onset of this monster… Continue reading Getting to the Bottom Line

endometriosis, Everyday Life, Uncategorized

The Empty Swing: My Infertility Struggle

I was diagnosed with infertility 2007 after my first of six surgeries for Endometriosis and Adenomyosis, a journey that resulted in a hysterectomy in late 2014.  I spent years suffering with the emotional and physical pain of not being able to conceive a pregnancy and I mourned never having a child of my own.  The… Continue reading The Empty Swing: My Infertility Struggle

Bipolar Disorder, endometriosis, Everyday Life, Uncategorized

Five to Seven Days

In the movie My Girl, the main actress, Vada, played by Anna Chlumsky gets her period, I believe for the first time.  When Thomas, played by Macaulay Culkin, comes to her door she informs him that he needs to come back in 5-7 days.  I have no clue what else happened in this movie, but… Continue reading Five to Seven Days

Bipolar Disorder, endometriosis, Everyday Life, Uncategorized

The Spawn of Satan

A spawn is defined as the following “the product or offspring of a person or place (used to express distaste or disgust)” by dictionary.com.  This definition will come in handy as you continue to read this blog.  As discussed in previous blogs, I have never had a child.  Therefore, I do not have any spawn,… Continue reading The Spawn of Satan