I have been thinking about Mother’s Day for a while now. I have had this heavy burden on my heart. I know that it is supposed to be a joyous holiday, a gleeful day, a day spent with smiles and hugs. But I am struggling. I keep thinking about the people who have lost… Continue reading Mother’s Day
I was diagnosed with infertility 2007 after my first of six surgeries for Endometriosis and Adenomyosis, a journey that resulted in a hysterectomy in late 2014. I spent years suffering with the emotional and physical pain of not being able to conceive a pregnancy and I mourned never having a child of my own. The… Continue reading The Empty Swing: My Infertility Struggle
Originally published last year, I felt a strong need to repost this blog... I am hoping it reaches the person that needs to read this... ~Bella ___________________________ I always wanted to be a mom. Much like my mother, I wanted to be a stay at home mom, make baby food from scratch and home school… Continue reading Barren
I am sitting in the waiting room “playing” on my iPhone. I take notice of the people who are sitting around me. An elderly woman walks from the reception desk and drags her left leg slightly behind her. She sits down with a thud. Adjacent to me is a younger couple, realistically probably my age. … Continue reading It’s Back!!!!
In life, things happen and we wonder why. Why do I have endometriosis? Why do I have Bipolar Disorder? Why do I suffer with chronic pain? Why does anxiety plague my brain with relentless questions and worries? What did I do to deserve all of this? As time passes, most questions will never be answered. … Continue reading When the pieces come together