Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life

Keep Going

I often feel like my boot is stuck in the mud. I can’t seem to wiggle it free so I stand there. I usually start to cry. I know I can step out of my boot and be free, muddy but free, but I want my boot, both of them and I want to be… Continue reading Keep Going

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, recovery

I am not ready…

I am not ready. Not ready for a slew of things. Whether it’s getting up, showered, and dressed (good ole depression) or heading into work sitting in traffic and actually working. I am not ready to get older or for my kids to grow up (more). Im not ready to have relationships change even for… Continue reading I am not ready…

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life

A broken arm

Photo by ThisIsEngineering on Pexels.com Let’s say I was roller blading (which anyone my age should NOT do) and I fell.  I ran into a trashcan and I flipped and landed on my arm.  It snapped, just like a wishbone. Should this have happened I would go to the hospital and I would get it… Continue reading A broken arm

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, recovery, therapy, Uncategorized

Bella’s Big Adventure

In less than two weeks I am going on an adventure.  There could be lions, tigers, or bears (oh my!~)  It was suggested that I pack light and there was a whole list of what to bring, and an even longer list of what not to bring, and I am stressing over the whole packing… Continue reading Bella’s Big Adventure

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, Uncategorized

Bella’s Babbles: Friday Edition 06/07/2019

Well hello there Friday, you sexy beast!  I am so very thankful that you have graced me with your presence, as I have missed you, as it has seemed that you had abandoned me and left me sitting here in a pool of my own tears. My what a week it has been.  It went… Continue reading Bella’s Babbles: Friday Edition 06/07/2019

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, Uncategorized

The cost of mental health care

It’s the time of the year where people may be submitting their tax returns or receiving their refunds.  I for one just received my refund.  It was not substantial, but it was something and I am happy to have received a gift as it goes right towards my credit card, the mighty piece of plastic… Continue reading The cost of mental health care

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, Uncategorized

A Full Time Job: Managing Mental Illness

I was reminded of a number of things when I met with my psychiatrist last Thursday afternoon.  One thing that she complimented me on was how I was in tune with my body and on top of my appointments. She mentioned she felt that managing a mental illness, like mine, which is Bi Polar, among… Continue reading A Full Time Job: Managing Mental Illness

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, Uncategorized

New Patient Intake Forms

I never find joy in filling out new patient in take forms.  I always seem to find that there is not enough room for, well, anything.  Perhaps it is because I write too large, but there is not enough room for my full name, or my complete street address, city and state.  I start writing… Continue reading New Patient Intake Forms

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, Uncategorized

Back to the Future

Anticipatory anxiety is when a person experiences anxiety about something that is going or about to happen.  It’s about something that we are making up in our heads.  This is the definition as per Michelle, not per Webster or Merriam dictionary, it’s based on my understanding.  I do it quite often, the whole anticipatory anxiety… Continue reading Back to the Future

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, Uncategorized

Aches and Pains

A storm front rolled into our area over night.  I recalled hearing that the weather would be changing at some point this week, but I did not take the time to look up the weather to see when this change was supposed to actually take place.  One benefit of living in the southwest is that… Continue reading Aches and Pains