Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life

Keep Going

I often feel like my boot is stuck in the mud. I can’t seem to wiggle it free so I stand there. I usually start to cry. I know I can step out of my boot and be free, muddy but free, but I want my boot, both of them and I want to be… Continue reading Keep Going

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, recovery

I am not ready…

I am not ready. Not ready for a slew of things. Whether it’s getting up, showered, and dressed (good ole depression) or heading into work sitting in traffic and actually working. I am not ready to get older or for my kids to grow up (more). Im not ready to have relationships change even for… Continue reading I am not ready…

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life

A broken arm

Photo by ThisIsEngineering on Pexels.com Let’s say I was roller blading (which anyone my age should NOT do) and I fell.  I ran into a trashcan and I flipped and landed on my arm.  It snapped, just like a wishbone. Should this have happened I would go to the hospital and I would get it… Continue reading A broken arm

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, therapy, Uncategorized

Babbles: Day 6

I wake and stumble out of bed.  I feel dizzy and woozy.  It is not helping that I have a little fur ball so excited that his mommy is awake that he is running circles around my legs. I look in the mirror and oh my face!  Puffy hooded eye lids, dark circles under my… Continue reading Babbles: Day 6

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, recovery, therapy, Uncategorized

Bella’s Big Adventure

In less than two weeks I am going on an adventure.  There could be lions, tigers, or bears (oh my!~)  It was suggested that I pack light and there was a whole list of what to bring, and an even longer list of what not to bring, and I am stressing over the whole packing… Continue reading Bella’s Big Adventure

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, Uncategorized

What Shoes are on my feet?

There are days that I amaze myself at how well I can function.  I am up, dressed, and totally on point.  Out the door before I am supposed to be, at my desk early and cranking away at the good ole to do list and making grand progress.  Almost robotic in a way.   Then… Continue reading What Shoes are on my feet?

Bipolar Disorder, Uncategorized

When Michelle IS afraid…

I think I shared this story before... It’s the one where we went to the beach for the first time as a blended family and the kids were younger. Being from the east coast I flocked to the water, it was soothing to my toes and my soul. Tottering behind me was my daughter.  She… Continue reading When Michelle IS afraid…

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, recovery, Uncategorized

Fight Like a Girl

Often times in life we receive news that’s not what we were expecting.  And we have to figure out ways to deal with the news that we received and process the disappointment that may be associated with the fact we did not hear what we were expecting to hear. There are times where I am… Continue reading Fight Like a Girl

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, Uncategorized

Copy Writing Skills

Although I was editor in chief (EIC) of my high school newspaper, I have never had the greatest copy writing skills.  When I was the EIC, my copy writer was amazing and incredibly skilled. As result, the product that we printed, the quality of the words on the paper, were the result of her magic… Continue reading Copy Writing Skills

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, Uncategorized

My Unquiet Mind

I find it incredibly peculiar how things come to being priorities in my life. I am the kind of a person that has nearly always been a “I have to have it now or I may die” melodramatic, impulsive, I call it being me, person.  At times, it has served me well, others not so… Continue reading My Unquiet Mind