Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, recovery, Uncategorized

Anti-Anxiety Cat Napping Music Swaying

After a long weekend of embracing my inner cat (sleeping, napping, and sleeping some more), it is back to the work week and being human which consists of wearing form fitting clothes, a for-real bra, and make-up.  Every part of me thinks that the weekend went by too quickly and my inner cat still wants… Continue reading Anti-Anxiety Cat Napping Music Swaying

Bipolar Disorder, Uncategorized

A Vacation Away

A week ago, at the early hour of 6 AM we left the desert to head to the Pacific Northwest for a respite from the heat of the desert and returned home yesterday evening.  A full week away.  The weather while away was divine, the views were picturesque and my family had what seemed to… Continue reading A Vacation Away

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, Uncategorized

When Symptoms Return: Anxiety

  This weekend was one where I did not have anything that was set in stone as far as activities go.  After several weeks of having one thing after another planned, it was a weekend where my partner and I looked at each other and said, “What do you want to do?” And we just… Continue reading When Symptoms Return: Anxiety

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, Uncategorized

Bears, Bananas and Batman

It was a mere weeks ago that I was having problems with leaving the house due to the high levels of anxiety that was looping through my head.  The fears of what could happen and what would I do if X and Y would happen, made it more than just a struggle to step out… Continue reading Bears, Bananas and Batman

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life

Nightly Routine: Medication

I take my medication at night. Its part of my routine. I open the glass cabinet door and I take a deep breath. I start from the far right of the shelf and I work my way down.  One pill onto the next.  Take two then a sip of water.  Another two, then another sip… Continue reading Nightly Routine: Medication

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, Uncategorized

Bella’s Babbles: Friday Edition 2/15/19

The day is nearly over and I have yet to write my weekly babble, golly gee bob willigers, what is going on?  I took the day as a personal day and have done very little work today.  The family had a few appointments today and with the way they were spaced out it made sense… Continue reading Bella’s Babbles: Friday Edition 2/15/19

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, Uncategorized

A Letter to My Anxiety

Dear Anxiety, I feel like you are a part of me, like a freckle on my skin that is affixed to me in a permanent way.  I feel like I will never be without you and that you at times, in the dark of the night, you multiply exponentially and are trying to take over… Continue reading A Letter to My Anxiety