Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life

Keep Going

I often feel like my boot is stuck in the mud. I can’t seem to wiggle it free so I stand there. I usually start to cry. I know I can step out of my boot and be free, muddy but free, but I want my boot, both of them and I want to be… Continue reading Keep Going

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, recovery

I am not ready…

I am not ready. Not ready for a slew of things. Whether it’s getting up, showered, and dressed (good ole depression) or heading into work sitting in traffic and actually working. I am not ready to get older or for my kids to grow up (more). Im not ready to have relationships change even for… Continue reading I am not ready…

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, Uncategorized

A Babbles Babble for Today

There is much to say and nothing to say all at the same time.  So here they come… making a grand entrance, Babbles… ta da!   I find that it’s when I am in this place that babbles happen, some are decent other are basically crap.  So we will see where this one goes.  I’ll… Continue reading A Babbles Babble for Today

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, recovery, Uncategorized

Bumpy Landings

I have embarked on a number of trips via airplane.  For me, there is a considerable amount of stress that is part of the travel process.  The confined space on the plane, the people sitting so close, and the fear if they will they have enough coffee?  These are all things I worry over. Some… Continue reading Bumpy Landings

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, recovery, Uncategorized

Giving Yourself Credit

  There are times when we need to stop and give ourselves credit.  Let me rephrase that, there are times that I need to stop and give myself credit. I am going to say it, I am doing a hell of an excellent job, as are you. Often, I find that I set unrealistic expectations… Continue reading Giving Yourself Credit

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, recovery

Selfies: A Yes or A No?

I was on Pinterest moseying around looking at this and that and I came across blog topic ideas.  I looked at it and thought, I can use this tool as sometimes I get in a rut, like most people.  It’s especially beneficial as I am going through this emotional and mental roller coaster.  And it… Continue reading Selfies: A Yes or A No?

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, Uncategorized

Mosaics and Life

This morning, I am sitting on the couch with one cat on each side of me.  Both are stretched out and resembling potatoes (they are orange tabbies).  Every so often my girl cat, Charlee Mae, will lift her head, turn it around and meow at me.  I haven’t a clue why.  Is my typing too… Continue reading Mosaics and Life

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, recovery, Uncategorized

Hidden Blessings

This weekend I spent time doing numerous things: I napped (gloriousness, I tell you, pure heaven) I went to the gym (Not quite gloriousness, but a good experience that made me feel proud of my accomplishment) Tidying up parts of my home (again felt pride and accomplishment for getting things done off my to do… Continue reading Hidden Blessings

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, recovery, Uncategorized

What’s holding you back?

I received an email today from a long-time acquaintance where I have had a long on again off again tumultuous relationship.  I want to be with them, and they act like they want me, and we last for a few semesters and then things get ugly, and forms get signed and doctors get involved and… Continue reading What’s holding you back?