Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, Uncategorized

Guilt: The Dark Monster

I sat on the couch and I looked at the chair.  Sitting on the chair was an enemy of mine.  I refused to make eye contact.  I just could not look that way.  I was told to address this enemy, speak to it, interpret what is being said, let it soak in. In all actuality… Continue reading Guilt: The Dark Monster

Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life, Uncategorized

Outside My Comfort Zone

When we venture outside of our comfort zones things can get a little wonky.  We end up existing in uncharted waters, in a field that is foreign to us, on a land that feels weird beneath our toes.  And you know sometimes being out of our comfort zone hurts.  It hurts physically, as you experience… Continue reading Outside My Comfort Zone

Bipolar Disorder, Uncategorized

The Doctor Will See You Now

It had been six weeks since I saw my doctor last, the longest I have gone without seeing my psychiatrist in the past.  Everything had been going ok during the time between visits until it wasn’t ok.  And it was the instability that I had experienced in the previous weeks that had me worried about… Continue reading The Doctor Will See You Now

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Letter to 65 Year Old Me

This was an assignment for my Developmental Psychology class and I had FAR too much fun writing this letter...   Letter to Self Dear Michelle, Have I told you lately how much I love you and how awesome I think you are?  I haven’t? Well, let me correct that.  You are an amazing, encouraging, charismatic… Continue reading Letter to 65 Year Old Me

Bipolar Disorder

The Power of a Hug

After a nice early morning walk with my friend, I made the decision to dress it up a little bit for work.  I work in a place where the dress code is lax and casual.  However, I passed on the jeans and flannels and I decided that I would wear my nice green dress, tights… Continue reading The Power of a Hug

Bipolar Disorder

When ok, isn’t really ok

I am in a good place. I wake up nearly every day and I feel refreshed.  Focusing on positives makes me happy.  In regards to some aspects of my life that are not ideal, I press forward, knowing that the situation is temporary and “this too shall pass”. With the start of the new year,… Continue reading When ok, isn’t really ok

Bipolar Disorder

Wide Angle Perspective

A wide-angle lens is used primarily in photography and cinematography.  It refers to a lens whose focal length is substantially smaller than the focal length of a normal lens.  A wide-angle lens allows there to be more scene in the picture. Although I have dabbled in photography for years and own two DSLR Nikon cameras,… Continue reading Wide Angle Perspective