Bipolar Disorder, Everyday Life

Keep Going

I often feel like my boot is stuck in the mud. I can’t seem to wiggle it free so I stand there. I usually start to cry. I know I can step out of my boot and be free, muddy but free, but I want my boot, both of them and I want to be… Continue reading Keep Going

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Love is patient

I have written about love in the past, but it has been heavy on my heart to write about it again. I do not know where I fall on the religious spectrum.  I was raised in a Christian household and primarily in the Southern Baptist Church.  There were many good years spent at this place… Continue reading Love is patient

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The Phoenix and a Diagnosis

  It is funny.  Not funny ha-ha, but funny the other way. I find it humorous how I can be in a “mood”, just in general.  It does not seem like it can get worse.  The irritability is present and boiling inside of me.  The irritability is something I am quite tired of.  All of… Continue reading The Phoenix and a Diagnosis

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Giving Yourself Credit

  There are times when we need to stop and give ourselves credit.  Let me rephrase that, there are times that I need to stop and give myself credit. I am going to say it, I am doing a hell of an excellent job, as are you. Often, I find that I set unrealistic expectations… Continue reading Giving Yourself Credit

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A Phone Call Away

Today is a day when I needed my mama.  I texted and asked when she was free, if she could call me.  I waited.  I tried to stay busy, but I was anxious and holding back the tears.  I really wanted to hear her voice, but I knew that she was otherwise preoccupied. It seemed… Continue reading A Phone Call Away

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Sewing (and life) 101

I have been sewing (on and off) for years, like 20.  I have been a very import pin holder and finder for much longer 😊 I fondly recall being young and helping my mom make medieval cone shaped princess hats.  I took such pride in my crocked stitching and slightly ripped fabric.  I did my… Continue reading Sewing (and life) 101

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Day 19: Luau Love

Saturday night I was sitting in a chair at the patio table in our backyard.  I was watching my teenagers sit in the adult inflatable pool that was illuminated by tiki torches.  They were talking and oh were they laughing.  I have no idea what was going on and that is fine, it did not… Continue reading Day 19: Luau Love

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Babbles: Day 8

Changes are happening, there’s been a shift.  I am looking at things a little bit differently. I sit here, thinking and wondering what am I learning from this most recent rapid cycling episode? After much thought I realized I am learning that I have immense strength and perseverance.  I am powering through an aggressive bout… Continue reading Babbles: Day 8

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Manic Babbles

I have started three blogs so far today: One blog consisted of Kacey Musgrave lyrics, another one talked about snakes sloughing off their skin.  And the third talked about anxiety being a large dark monster that is engulfing me. As I keep writing, the words are going everywhere, this way and that way, all zig… Continue reading Manic Babbles

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The Little Things

This morning I sat quietly on the couch sipping coffee.  I sat next to my spouse and we didn’t say a word.  In place of our voices was the sound of birds chirping.  It was a beautiful, harmonious orchestra of sound.  I (for once) did not feel the need to talk, or chatter, babbling away… Continue reading The Little Things